You always break me down to my lowest point.

I don’t even know what’s real anymore.

Why can’t this just stop?

I’m kind of freaking out. I’ve haven’t told many people what I want to do after I graduate just because I am nervous about seeming like I’m crazy. Or worse, if it turns out that I fail, I will look like a dumbass. I’ve had a hard time keeping my mouth shut though because I’m so excited about it, and now I’m freaking out.

What if I’m making a complete idiot out of myself?

Meeting with a certain advisor to see if its even possible for me to do what i really want to do. I don’t think I’ve ever been so scared. If he says no i may just lose it.